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Post by Jess on Mar 15, 2005 0:15:50 GMT 10
I was affected this weekend by Guy like I've never been before and my feelings for him have dramatically changed.
Although I've always loved Guy to bits and pieces and have wanted to see him again and again and again, I've never seen him more than someone who creates great music who is essentially a really good and inspirational person.
He has never made me overwhelmed. He's only ever drawn emotion from me through music (more specifically Beautiful Friend) ... but based on my experience on Saturday Nights concert and meeting him on friday night -- I just came home today feeling so overwhelmed with emotions and feelings for Guy that I've never had before.
It's not an OMGIWANTTOHAVEYOURBABIES kinda feelings (lol) but its just so intense and inexplicable ... I feel really silly about it, but I know that some of you will be able to understand...
I've actually spent the entire night crying over it, cause it's hard to make sense of it all... I'm a little depressed and part of me feels so intensely that I don't know if I want to see Guy again, but the other part (the majority lol) is planning for the next show.
My meeting with Guy on friday night was so different to any other time I've ever met him and I haven't been able to figure out why because it was so short and it was at a signing. I've never actually paid Guy any high compliments in person before-- I've more-or-less spoken the first thing that pops in to my head (hey Guy, I nearly peed my pants when I heard you sing Jesus-- wow, appropriate) and never said how I really feel because I struggle with verbalising feelings or conveying emotions thru spoken words.
And at Valans urging, I told him something that was really hard for me to even push from my lips and as I did I was shaking and felt really sick to the stomach of what he could be thinking of me as I explained what I wanted to say and his words that followed after, however few, meant more to me than anything I've heard from Guy before....
I have no way of describing it but I'm just so affected by it all. And even when he shook my hand as I was walking off, stupid it may sound, but I felt something within that contact-- comfort. I don't know...
Anyway as I said to someone else, the only way I can rationalise it so that I can grasp understanding of my feelings is that for the first time I opened up my heart to Guy completely and even with such hesitation and reluctance -- but I got something out of it, I just haven't figured out what it is yet...
I wanted to share that with everyone because maybe someone else will understand and help me figure it out... lol.
Love you guys...
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Post by thespark on Mar 15, 2005 0:24:04 GMT 10
;D Jess this is probably the one thing we shouldof told him ageeeeeessssssssss ago, but obviously more has happened since then and the events, the feelings, the timing all came to right moment...when it was finally said. and thank you for saying it for me too...cus i would of stuffed it up for sure.  I didnt know he shook your hand jess...he waved goodbye to me. *sings* Gotta put your heart on the line, if you want to make it right... gotta put it all on the liiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnneeeeee" |
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Post by SonyaR on Mar 15, 2005 0:24:36 GMT 10
Hey Jess, I hear you... I'm half way around the world, have never even come close to seeing or meeting Guy, and yet no one has ever affected me like he has! It really is an indescribable feeling. |
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Post by SoCrazyInLoveWithGUY on Mar 15, 2005 0:34:20 GMT 10
Don't rationalise it, Jess. Just feel it  |
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Post by Madley on Mar 15, 2005 0:37:09 GMT 10
Hey Jess, I hear you... I'm half way around the world, have never even come close to seeing or meeting Guy, and yet no one has ever affected me like he has! It really is an indescribable feeling. im havind the same thing  |
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Post by thespark on Mar 15, 2005 0:38:31 GMT 10
Our meeting ;D ;D ;D:  Thanks Irene for capturing the moment. |
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Post by Irene ~ (mamasforguy) on Mar 15, 2005 1:06:58 GMT 10
JEss i dont know ya reallywell but i truly love this post your wrote . Its so real and beautiful. I relate to this so deeply and have a had a life of this type of experiencses which to me is the best thing about life. YET the way you desribe it, - I really i have to take my hat off to you ..for words are hard to capture the presence of what id say IS the spirit of true Love. It affects each of us differntly though :)YEH its not romantic or sexual but just Love. The soul inside awakens when it is willing to be open and sees somone like Guy who ISso awake to that ....that love is all attractive aand the most drawing feeling we can ever have... anywhow thats the way i see it, I tell ya i was the othr way round with GUY my first few meetings were that level of connection the second time we met i would have honeslty died for him.For that love he has. that is not a childish fan comment that is the truth. then came lots of silliness jokes etc ......anyway this aint about me ..oops:) I just love your way of articulating you experience of being touched by what i call the BIG LOVE..your so funnya dn so real ... but i also love your openess to share it ...being real is pretty amazing..and he vibes in like no one ive evr seen that boiis a mirror., ..if i feel shit about me he gives weird vibes back if im in my heart he is like so so so nice and supportive ..anyway anyway sorry im blabbing aagin but yeh you made my night by writin this irene xx |
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Post by thespark on Mar 15, 2005 1:10:04 GMT 10
Well said. |
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Post by Sheenia on Mar 15, 2005 1:45:55 GMT 10
Jess, that’s so amazing.
I was lucky enough to be sitting next to Val to see what you both saw.
It was truly a magical performance (beautiful friend) and an amazingly special moment for you both, how lucky can you get.
I’m so happy you have been struck by that bolt of lightening, haha of ‘I wanna have your baby’ hehe, can you please get Anna to make a new photo album…. I think a Jess/Guy baby would have the biggest afro on the face of this earth.
I have never been zapped by the Guy lightening and was starting to think it was all faded at the beginning of this year until Wyong which I thought was the best I had seen him, but still not zap, then Saturday happened and I finally got to just Guy it up (so to speak)……I felt so totally into the actual concert and his singing that I didn’t care what he or anyone thought (was nice to let my guard down for a change…thanks Val…you make a great concerting buddy) and I got to just feel it all….was so so so great.
I just love Guy, think he is one of the most inspirational influences in my life. He inspires me and he endlessly amazes me, but never ever like he amazed me on Saturday night. Never!
I understand what you mean about not going to another concert because I have to say that I was churning all Sunday thinking, if I go, it will never top last night, for whatever reason it was just the best I have ever seen him. I am pleased things turned out the way they did, I will now be left for the rest of the year with this great night, experience and fun time to remind me of what’s to come at the next set of concerts.
For me I was touched like never before when he sang that song for Carl. It was the deep understand he had when he sang that song that just left me totally and utterly wrecked emotionally. It’s a moment that I have tried to explain to people who could only go ;/ to me when I tried to say, he touched a cord in me that made me wonder where on earth a young man, having not experienced anything of this magnitude could ever fully understand to express it like this. I am still playing it over and over, knowing there is something so deep about him that no one, not even he could truly explain. A truly blessed man, who has the capacity to reach out and touch you when you least expect it. I don’t think we will ever see the likes of Guy ever again. I pray he stays in this industry for ever and ever and ever, and even when I am 70 and he is doing his final final final final farewell concert tour for the 11th time, I will be there weeping like I did for the first time on Saturday night. It just felt good, all of it, but particularly when he sang to Carl.
I am so happy you had such an amazing time Jess…. and thank you for all the fun in Canberra. It was a crack up….mmMMMmmmmm (shudder) cheese!
Val, thanks for being next to me too…hehe, I got a great view….hehe thanks to you and the poodles!
I also agree with Irene and Val....this was a beautiful post....was amazing to read and thanks for sharing it.
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Post by Jess on Mar 15, 2005 2:38:44 GMT 10
Thank you so much, Guys... I was a little nervous about laying it all out like that... and I'm going to cry again from Sheenia's response... Guy singing The Day. As soon as he said he was going to be singing a babyface song for Carl, I had already exclaimed, "THE DAY!" and ... the part, "And I felt a blessing straight from God..." The way he sang that part ... I have goosebumps thinking about it... I was so blown away, my eyes watered the entire way through that song. Wow! I'm trying not to rationalise it, but ew, not being in control of how you feel for someone is so scary, especially when you don't know that person. I've NEVER cried over Guy. He's never been quite THAT important to me -- but it's not out of sadness, it's just out of.... God knows... Anyway, I'm too exhausted to elaborate any further. I think I might pretend to be an under 18 to go to Crush next week... haha. Since we all know Guy thinks I'm about 15 anyway. Why would it hurt??  |
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Post by nanouk on Mar 15, 2005 3:12:52 GMT 10
Awwww Jess! That was beautiful. I know the weekend had an effect on you but I had no idea it was this profound.
'The Day' had me in tears too. Wasn't it just beautiful. I wonder if anyone was able to record it. I listened to the Babyface version as soon as I got home. I know I'm biased but I really loved Guy's rendition of it.
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Post by bbg on Mar 15, 2005 5:31:42 GMT 10
Jess, I just think, as I told you last night on the phone, that you are on a journey. Remember this always: YOUR ARMS ARE TOO SHORT TO BOX WITH GOD Basically...just go with the flow! There is NO OTHER WAY. Love ya heaps. Peace, Reg |
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Post by thespark on Mar 15, 2005 6:07:24 GMT 10
Highlighting this for sheyne...ahem girl...read ya own words!!!
Wha???
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Post by joes off to work on Mar 15, 2005 6:31:18 GMT 10
Jess this is a beautiful thread that I think we can all relate to. Thanks for sharing your heart.
Will come back to this thread tonight
Love
Jo xxxx
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Post by Angel at Heart on Mar 15, 2005 7:25:09 GMT 10
Dear Jess
There are times in our life, when some one crosses our path to remind us who we really are, and why we are here. I am not going to get to deep with you at the moment, I honour your honesty, I experinced the same thing 2 yrs ago - and yes with the earth angel that he is! It is unconditional love - which is - love with out conditions, know that you are not alone there are many more. Love thy self (not ego) is one aspect that Guy is showing you (by example) I would like you to remember one thing, if you dont know already - we cannot reconise anything in anyone - if we do not have it within ourselves - mirror image - so accept that Guy does have a beautiful energy around him and a heart of gold! and so do you!! cause your opening up to it! love'n light to life.
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